:: מפרי מחשבותיה של נפש לא שייכת ::

I’ve felt the light of a thousand suns
It shone so bright, but then was gone
It touched me deeply, and gave me hope
Though as I knew, it had to stop

I thought perhaps my life won’t be
As empty as they might have been
I thought perhaps that I would see
A brighter future than foreseen

Was it too much to ask or pray
To have a reason here to stay
Was it too much, I ask you god?
Now everything is twice as bad

You gave, and took, and there’s no other
I wonder why I even bother
Well, nothing matters any more
My wounds are open, my heart is sore

And as the curtains draw so near
So very little left to fear
My life now is just one regret
A dead man’s dream inside my chest

A fool I was, a foolish man
From past mistakes I should’ve learned
I saw her colors once, indeed
To try again there was no need

Yet I was drawn, could not avoid
That bleeding heart, so filled with void
That cruel style, which hid inside
A sweeter manner, a softer hide

The second time, I thought - a change
Yet she was still out of my range
Wounded, I made my retreat
I cursed myself, twice was I hit

But I could not just stay away
I took my third chance, with a pray
Perhaps from all those seeds I’ve sown
A pretty flower could have grown

I felt her warmth, I was inspired
But I kept cautious on my side
For I have played the game for long
Things that start right tend to end wrong

But days went by, and she warmed up
In many layers she was wrapped
I stayed patient, it all went fine
With time, I hoped, she will be mine

Imagine how I was surprised
When in one night, again it died
The warmth withdrawn, the flame put out
One soul who got me, one soul apart

My darkness now is mine alone
Misunderstood, like all along
To always feel this endless pain
My eyes are dry. My tears are rain

I have your picture on my wall
Its color pale, and that is all
That’s left of what we used to be
A dead reminder of you and me

Many nights since then have passed
You were the only, not the last
But even with their warm embrace
Not one of them could take your place

I gaze upon a small black cat
And it gazes at me back
As if to ask this foolish man
How did he lose the best of them

If only you were truly mine
I would have made use of the time
That we did have, and could have had
I’d use the good, I’d use the bad

But instead we let it die
We kissed and then we said goodbye
I can’t recall the taste of your kiss
I wish I could just rest in peace

Instead each time that I wake up
Far away from your warm lap
I remember all that I have lost
I walk the streets next to your ghost

They say love doesn’t kill these days
The world is turning in new ways
So call me old, though I’m still young
An old sad fool that had it wrong

I had the best in all the land
Now memories escape like sand
Your smell, your voice - they fade away
Like your picture, to color gray